Fluffalicious No Mo

Yeah I know two posts in one day. Don't get used to it!

After I posted the "It's okay Thursday!" post, I ran into another link up I wanted to take part in.

These two ladies have started a link up about weight loss and getting healthy. You can find them
here and here. Although I don't think either one of them need to lose an ounce of weight, I totally understand wanting to get healthy.

So, I decided to join in on the fun! (Just go with me on the fun part)


As you know I started the Couch to 10k program a couple of weeks ago....well actually last week. I just did week 2, day 1 today. (Due to the encounter with the alcohol over the weekend, I was pushed back a few days, so my schedule is all whack-a-doodle now.)

Anywho, once upon a time I was skinny. I was a size 3-5 out of high school, after having baby #1, and baby #2. Eventually I went to a 7, then a 9, and then all the way up to a 14. I was almost to the point of out weighing my husband. I was steps away from 200 smackaroos (and I'm not talking money here)

It's funny how things like weight can just sneak up on you. I swear I woke up one day and was like "Holy Sh*t! Where did this fat come from?" After discussing weight loss options with a co-worker, she convinced me to see a weight dr. She had much success with it, so I took the bait. (Yeah, I'm such a sucker for a good gimmick). I started on the diet Nov. 11 of 2008. By New Years Eve, I was down 17lbs. By February/March of 2009, I was down 30lbs. It was a low carb, high protein diet. Eating several meals a day, but also included diet pills. I had never felt better. I looked good and I was confident. It was the best feeling in the world!

Eventually the summer rolled around and I didn't want to "diet" anymore. I wanted to drink beer and have fun with my friends. And that I did. Up 10 pounds - no big deal, I will just work on it in a week or so. Up 20 lbs. I still feel okay, and nobody can tell - right? Up 30 lbs. What was I thinking? I wasted all of that hard work, not to mention money. I ruined a good thing.

To this day, I still go see that weight dr. every month, but it's not the same. He would give me anything I wanted, as long as I paid for it of course, but I don't have the motivation to follow the "diet" again. I feel hopeless.

The working out part isn't the hard part for me, it's the eating that gets me. I know that eating right will eventually pay off, but there are days that I would hurt tiny creatures for a big ol' juicy burger. I know diet is in moderation and you should eat a burger, if you really want a burger, but some days that's all I want for like 7 days in a row. Plus fries. And maybe a shake. It's a slippery slope and I slide fast. Face first.

I've read a lot of blogs. I have seen a lot of inspiration and I know what I need to do. The hard part for me is the following through. "Don't waste a good workout by eating crappy food." "Abs don't come from working out, they come from eating right."

Food will always be a lingering thought for me, which is why I am 100% reliant on diet pills. No they are probably not the safest thing for me, but in reality if I have taken them, then it's easier for my mind to think I'm not hungry. "No silly, you're not hungry. You just had your pill. All will be well in just a minute."  Now don't get me wrong, I am not starving myself. I eat 3 meals per day. Some good, some bad. But lemme tell you...on the days I don't take my pills, it's like a flood gate. I am raiding cabinets and vending machines, etc. It's all in the mind for me.

What I want is to finally break free from the "oh my gosh I think I am going to die if I don't eat right now and I will eat anything just to satisfy that hunger" moments. I'm a sucker for diet coke and would love to kick this coffee in the morning habit. I hate coffee, I really do. However, I have this fascinating concoction that calls for a lot of creamer and 3 sweet 'n low packets per cup. I typically have 2 cups per day.

I want to eat meaningful meals that are fun, not boring. I want it to be a lifestyle change that is easy to maintain. Because as we all know, when things don't go as planned, it could be VERY dangerous when it comes to food and gorging.

I want to be an inspiration to my kids, so they know just because you are "old", doesn't mean you are fat and lazy.

I hope I can be an inspiration to you, as you will be to me. It's going to be a bumpy ride, but let's tighten up our seat-belts and grab our helmets.

Are you ready?

Here is my before pic. (Sorry - no skin.)

My attempt at a self-portrait. Not good. Not good.

Photo of me - with my daughter's help. 

This is me today, 8/2/2012 - fresh off the treadmill after completing a Couch to 10k workout. As you can see, I could definitely use some help in the stomach, legs, and ass area. (I know you can't see my ass in this picture, but I promise you it's there!) I have a FUPA, ya'll! A FUPA! Some of you know what that is, for those of you that don't - google it (or urban dictionary)! It is the most humiliating part of my body. I hate it!!!



We can do this! Cheers to all of us....soon to be....Skinny Bishes!! xoxo

Trying to find Balance.....

Well Hello Friends! It's been a couple of days, since I have been on my blog. I have missed it. I have thought about it often, and kept thinking about posting, but I am having a huge issue with balance the past couple of days.

 Balance......seems easy enough. Right now we are in the slowest time of our life. By that I mean, the kids aren't playing soccer. We aren't running to practice a couple of times per week or games on the weekend. In fact, I haven't seen my children most of the summer. So why am I so unbalanced?

Well, let me tell you.

 I work full-time outside of the home. 

I'm married.

I'm a momma to two great kids. (No really, they're pretty great.)

I sell Scentsy.

I sell Velata. (Part of the Scentsy Family)

I like reality (trash tv).

I have 4 dogs.

I started running again. 

Try to help keep the house running smoothly. 

The Olympics.

I like to read.

I like spending time with my friends.

Oh yeah, and I blog!

All of these things have taken bits and pieces of my time for one reason or another. I feel like I am spinning in circles, trying to balance it all, yet I feel like I don't do anything a lot of the time. 

I need to keep up on my coupons, but I don't have time. I need to balance the checkbook more often, but I don't have time. I need to read book 3 of 50 Shades of Grey, but I don't have time. But in reality, I do. I just have poor, poor, poor time management.

In fact, I feel like I was cruising along pretty smoothly, balancing the fam (easy to do when we are down 2 kids), working, blogging (sometimes even blogging when I am supposed to be working - shhh don't tell on me!)

And then.....

Something new came along and I started pouring my attention into it - allowing it to consume 2 whole days of my life. Leaving the blog, leaving the checkbook, leaving the fam (sorry guys), and even leaving work behind....

Scentsy. 

Scentsy itself isn't new, but they just announced their new brand last Thursday and I was intrigued.  

Something new. Something different. Something that could be the reason I quit Corporate America.

Something else that is going to require time, attention, and balance.

I need to focus. I really need to get time management in order, because I don't want to fail. I want to be successful in my ventures. I have a down-line. A team that relies on me (well some of them do). I want to be a mentor, a friend, and a successful business partner to each of them, but I am unbalanced. I need to figure out how not just one, not just two, but 3 business ventures will fit into my life successfully. I have a great opportunity in front of me, but it will be tough to balance it all. I have put my Scentsy business on the bottom of the list many times, because I don't have time. If I could make the time, I could be very, very successful while working from home. People do it all of the time. I have 3 opportunities in front of me that could make this a reality to me, but I am scared.

You know what they say, "Jack of all trades, master of none." (I don't want to be that guy).

Just so you all know, I have worked on my coupons today. I have watched a bit of trash tv, and I have worked my Velata business a bit, I did my Couch to 10k workout, and I worked (really I did work) at my Corporate America job 95% of the day.

I'm working on being intentional with my time. I am working on balancing things out. 

How do you keep your life balanced?

Now hop on over to Life of Meg and Mingle!! 

Couch to 10k

Today marks the beginning of the Couch to 10k program for me. Although I never completed the Couch to 5k program, I decided to give the Couch to 10k a try.  So I dusted off the treadmill and got to running. 


Week 1, Day 1 complete. 


This workout was not easy, but manageable. It was 8 repetitions of running for 60 seconds and walking 90 seconds. I remember not that long ago that running for 60 seconds was literally hell. This time, I felt good. I felt accomplished. 


I will do this whole program over 10 weeks....3 workouts per week. I peeked ahead and the workouts look pretty tolerable until about week 7, then I think it's going to get tough.


My goal with this is to not even run a 10k in a competition, but to complete a 5k - running the whole time. I may end up doing 10k's eventually, but I want to better my 5k time. My first race a couple of years ago, my time was 43 minutes. When I ran in March, my time was 36:24, so I improved 10 minutes. (Keep in mind, I was completely hungover when I ran 43 minutes). My ultimate goal is to race competitively in the 20's. I will be happy with high 20's. I think I can do it. 


I love how I feel after a good run. I'm completely excited for the day that I can go run 5 miles like it's not a big deal at all! I'm focused again on exercise and I'm ready to see my progress. I think I might throw in a little "Slim in 6", too! I need to work on my arm flab.....gross! 


29 running workouts to go! 


Now, hop on over to Life of Meg and join in on Mingle Monday!!